The Shadow that I am…
I trigger people. There is no other way at looking at this, other than me being a big mirror in people’s faces. I literally cause people to have to see or deal with truths that they avoid. It’s a gift and a curse.It’s part of my intuitive ability, it completely sucks when one day you’re praised for helping and the next your crucified for being human .
I can’t help but be a vibrational match to various perspectives; another aspect of my intuitive gifts. I can see multiple perspectives and outcomes for people’s life paths, again a blessing and a curse. When I tell a person what I see the fear of the unknown either makes that person want to run in another direction or break down into tears ready to embrace change.
I am the shadow healer. I am your subconscious, the aspects of you that you avoid, reject or don’t want to deal with. When I’m working with someone, I have a vibrational hold in the space for them to shift those perspectives to line up with better desired healing or a better understanding of their suffering. I cannot prepare you for your reaction towards your healing and as much as I hold the space and understand where you are coming from it still sucks because either at one point I am loved or treated like garbage.
The shadows of people’s traumas, emotional discords and fears are hard for anyone to deal with but I have patience. I seriously do. Again sometimes a little too much patience, because people project their anger towards me when I have triggered them. It breaks my heart to see people suffer. But I realized something very big this week – I can’t fix the world, I can only be an example. I can only use my gifts to teach others to use their own. People avoid way too much, it’s why we have anxieties to begin with.
They also forget I am human and have feelings. They also forget I make mistakes or have various opinions or perspectives. I’ll always be the shadow for others because through that there is light and so much love. The shadow that I am is the embracing of love, it’s the duality of life. That’s why you’ll love me one day and then hate me the next, but I’m ok with it because I know myself. I know who I am and what my purpose is.
I’m not afraid of my shadow.
May Love and Light Guide you home….