The Divine Feminine
I have spent the last three days at home, in bed. My PMDD took on its full effect since last Thursday and my thoughts and energy just knocked me out. The struggle is real. To top it all off, my gynaecologist called to advise me that as of next month I will have to complete some treatment, which I am definitely not looking forward to. My menstrual cycles have been out of whack, my cramps have been a lot to deal with and the feeling of not having any control over my being is making me feel extremely vulnerable.
The question I keep playing over and over in my head is how could I have manifested not only PMDD but such a huge hormonal imbalance. What is it about my life that could be causing me so much pain? Many women I know in my life feel the exact way, as if no matter what we do once that time of the month hits, we are completely at mercy with it.
I’m the type of person who constantly gets creative ideas and wants to get everything done now. I have pushed myself and have worked so hard. have put the needs and Healings of others before my own and due to this my body has suffered. Where is my balance? Where is the time I need to nurture my ideas and give birth to them? I have many talents, I love art and decorating, I’m highly intuitive and have helped many, but my body is showing me that it’s time to stop running away from it.
I can only speak from what my guides tell me and from a universal perspective. I am not a doctor (but God bless those who are) we for sure need them, but I ask that we search within ourselves. We need to notice our womb, our divine feminine, to notice how much of ourselves we have ignored and pushed against. How we have masked our pains with drugs and feelings of insensitivity. We are women and our bodies are temples, yet we treat ourselves like we would a man. We push harder, workout harder, don’t eat right , body shame, compare ourselves, guilt for not being good enough and reject our monthly cycles. Did we forget that we are women and need time to nurture ourselves?
I have felt sadness my whole life, I have hid behind the mask of anger. I have adopted that mask to protect me from my sensitivity. I need love, I need to be seen and I want to thrive as a women. I want to take time off when my monthly cycle shows up, I want to slow down, create and nurture my being. I’m totally ok with being who I am, maybe I can be an example to women who struggle with the same issue. My body is telling me that I must heal all aspects of my divine feminine. It’s time for my womb to be healed, this includes my inner child, my teenage and adolescent self. Look at your story and notice if you’ve been abused or have continued to abuse your body. I know I have. My wounds are real and my body needs the rest. My anxieties, worries, fears and guilt are real; and it’s also me struggling to fit into society’s expectations. Those aspects of myself are not real, what is real is how much do you love yourself and how much are you willing to slow down?
We lead busy lives and have created so many illusions. We need to start considering small changes in our lives – where you come first, where you can take time off and nurture yourself, where you can express your divine feminine through art or dance and be creative. The depression is real and more women are noticing how amplified this has become, the energy of change is coming through and its creating more truth in our lives. Time to stand in yours.
May love and light guide you home,