I don’t think of myself as a positive person, I’m not usually someone who wakes up in the morning looking forward to the day ahead. It takes me a while to get into the space of my physical body and get grounded into my physical perspective. I’m also someone who usually has something negative to say before my good thoughts start streaming. It’s the only way I know how to operate.
I take notice of my surroundings and actually get super annoyed with people who say things like ” just be positive, or go with the flow” it’s as if they no substance at all. I’m even more annoyed with people who say things like “create a vision board” or “say affirmations” and pretend that everything is ok. In all fairness, I can understand why they do it. It gives them some hope, or control over their lives. However, if only they paid some attention to how they felt they would notice that being a human, having a human experience is by far the most complex of all experiences.
I was teaching a workshop recently and as I started going around attuning to each persons’ vibration, I noticed a theme. Each person was trying their hardest to be positive, when instead each person had deep dark expressions of themselves. The negativity needed to be noticed and embraced. When I finally addressed that it was totally ok to live in that perspective it was as if I had given full permission for the group to be themselves! A sigh of relief, not only for them but for myself included.
A true negative person is hard on themselves. They hide behind the illusion and wear a mask of joy, while inside of themselves there are filled with these hard emotions. These emotions are difficult to deal with and therefore they assume that they are negative and bad people. In reality, a truly negative person is someone who takes no responsibility for their action or uses people to gain what they want.
Anyway, the point is this: what if we had real permission to just enjoy our true nature, did you know the most creative minds are dark by nature?
I know my best work comes from my subconscious fears, doubts and ability to express my true ” negative” side. In other words you’re just expressing your creative self and through that perspective, you achieve your true joy. Through that experience you can see the beauty that life offers. It’s in the relief of knowing “I am human” and that being me is what matters. Embrace your darkness, you may be surprised how creative you really are!