I don’t care.
It is something I have been saying to myself lately. I don’t care, I don’t care if I offend you, I don’t care if you don’t like what I have to say , I don’t care if you don’t like me and I especially don’t care about your opinion of me. Yes, it may be harsh, it may be in the vibration of being negative, but guess what I don’t care.
My whole life I was bullied. I remember thinking people were my friends but they would talk behind my back (even when I sensed it), they would lie about me to others causing drama and would eventually make me out as the bad guy! Now, don’t get me wrong I take responsibility for putting myself into those situations , but at that time I felt alone and didn’t have any confidence in walking away from the abuse, because I thought it was normal!
It’s taken me a long time to get to this point in my life, where I finally speak up and I do not care if I offend anyone in the process. I will no longer be silent. I’ve played the role of being the bigger person and frankly it’s exhausting. Some would say, I’m being dramatic, but there is no such thing! This is how I feel, and I’m honouring it!
In the last few months, I have cut ties with people who use others, are bullies, play the victim and act as if they did not cause the problem that they created! I made the decision to politely (yes politely) tell it how it is, from my perspective and cut ties, I don’t care anymore. My happiness is what matters the most. The way you feel has nothing to do with me.
Ok so the metaphysical perspective is this: if everything is a mirror of you, than the truth is I’m the bully to myself, I’m the one who created the drama and I’m the one who talks badly about myself. I did for years, the truth is we all do. The reason I chose to cut ties is because I’m proclaiming to myself and the vibration that was part of me, that I will no longer tolerate that behaviour for myself. I don’t care, really means I’ve let go of the resistance to self-abuse which means my exterior world will mirror the awareness within. I take ownership for the role I play in everyone’s life that crosses my path and above all my emotions. The question is can you see your truth? When will you not care enough to actually care more for your own self and pay less focus on others’ problems that you make your own?
May Love and Light Guide you Home,